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- true#Imomsohard
- true'Round midnight
- true100 essays I don't have time to write : on umbrellas and sword fights, parades and dogs, fire alarms, children, and theater
- 100 preguntas que se hacen todas las mamás
- true44 poems for you
- true9 months in, 9 months out : a scientist's tale of pregnancy and parenthood
- trueA Love-Stretched Life: Stories on Wrangling Hope, Embracing the Unexpected, and Discovering the Meaning of Family
- trueA better woman : a memoir
- trueA ghost in the throat
- trueA good enough mother
- trueA house for happy mothers : a novel
- trueA kitchen in the corner of the house
- A life's work : on becoming a mother
- trueA life's work : on becoming a mother
- trueA million reasons why
- trueA most English princess : a novel of Queen Victoria's daughter
- trueA necessary end
- trueA series of catastrophes & miracles : a true story of love, science, and cancer
- trueA window opens : a novel
- trueAccidents in the home : a novel
- trueAfter Birth
- trueAfter the dam : a novel
- trueAgainst wind and tide : letters and journals, 1947-1986
- trueAgrippina : the most extraordinary woman of the Roman world
- trueAin't That a Mother: Postpartum, Palsy, and Everything in Between
- trueAll its charms
- trueAll roads lead to Jerusalem : an American Muslim mom's search for meaning in the Holy Land
- trueAll she ever wanted
- trueAll the flowers in Shanghai
- trueAll the wrong men and one perfect boy : a memoir
- Amando
- trueAmateur hour : motherhood in essays and swear words
- trueAmbitious like a mother : why prioritizing your career is good for your kids
- trueAmish celebrations : four stories
- trueAnchor & flares : a memoir of motherhood, hope, and service
- trueAnd mistress makes three
- trueAnd nanny makes three : mothers and nannies tell the truth about work, love, money, and each other
- trueAnd now we have everything : on motherhood before I was ready
- trueAngel baby : a novel
- trueAny other family
- trueAre you my mother? : a comic drama
- trueArms wide open : a midwife's journey
- trueAsk me what's for dinner one more time : inappropriate thoughts on motherhood
- trueAt mama's knee : mothers and race in black and white
- trueBaby bumps : from party girl to proud mama, and all the messy milestones along the way
- Barbara & Susan's guide to the empty nest : discovering new purpose, passion & your next great adventure
- trueBecoming
- trueBehave
- trueBeing there : why prioritizing motherhood in the first three years matters
- trueBest intentions
- trueBetween here and April
- trueBetween you and me
- trueBitter bitch : a novel
- trueBlack widow : a sad-funny journey through grief for people who normally avoid books with words like "journey" in the title
- trueBlood on the Rocks
- trueBlow your house down : a story of family, feminism, and treason
- trueBlue shoe
- trueBody full of stars : female rage and my passage into motherhood
- trueBookends: A Memoir of Love, Loss, and Literature
- trueBorn to fly : a memoir
- trueBoth/and : a life in many worlds
- trueBraided : a journey of a thousand challahs
- trueBreak in case of emergency
- trueBridget Jones : mad about the boy
- trueBridget Jones's baby : the diaries
- trueBright burning things : a novel
- trueBrown, white, black : an American family at the intersection of race, gender, sexuality, and religion
- trueCat & Nat's mom secrets : coffee-fueled confessions from the mom trenches
- trueCatastrophic happiness : finding joy in childhood's messy years
- trueCaul baby : a novel
- trueChasing shadows
- trueChild, please : how Mama's old-school lessons helped me check myself before I wrecked myself
- Chocolate para el corazón de mamá : historias de inspiración que celebran el espíritu de la maternidad
- trueChouette
- Cinco madres, cinco historias
- trueClub sandwich : a novel
- trueCome Sunday
- trueCome home
- trueConstellations : reflections from life
- trueCormorant Lake : a novel
- trueCoventry : essays
- trueCrying in the Bathroom: A Memoir
- trueDancing in the mosque : an Afghan mother's letter to her son
- trueDark lullaby
- trueDating Big Bird
- trueDays of awe
- trueDear Lucy
- trueDear Scarlet : the story of my postpartum depression
- trueDear mother : poems on the hot mess of motherhood
- trueDear self : a year in the life of a welfare mother
- trueDear thing
- trueDeath of a dog whisperer
- trueDetransition, baby : a novel
- trueDiana & Jackie : maidens, mothers, myths
- trueDiana, William, and Harry
- trueDie, my love
- Discovering the inner mother : a guide to healing the mother wound and claiming your personal power
- trueDivide me by zero
- trueDolly City
- trueDon't wait up : confessions of a stay-at-work mom
- trueDouble lives : a history of working motherhood in modern Britain
- trueDouble time : how I survived---and mostly thrived---through the first three years of mothering twins
- trueDressing modern maternity : the Frankfurt sisters of Dallas and the Page Boy label
- Dulce hogar : un retorno a lo esencial
- trueEasy beauty : a memoir
- trueEleanor in the village : Eleanor Roosevelt's search for freedom and identity in New York's Greenwich Village
- trueElizabeth Seton : American saint
- trueEnd of men
- trueEntry lessons : the stories of women fighting for their place, their children, and their futures after incarceration
- trueEssential labor : mothering as social change
- trueEverything I needed to know I learned from my six-month-old : awakening to unconditional self-love in motherhood
- trueEverything beautiful in its time : seasons of love and loss
- trueEverything left to remember : my mother, our memories, and a journey through the Rocky Mountains
- trueEverything you ever wanted : a memoir
- trueFaces in the crowd
- trueFalling apart in one piece : one optimist's journey through the hell of divorce
- trueFamily in six tones : a refugee mother, an American daughter
- trueFault lines : a novel
- trueFeast your eyes
- Feed yourself, feed your family good nutrition, and healthy cooking for new moms and growing families
- trueFierce kingdom : a novel
- trueFierce love : a memoir of family, faith, and purpose
- trueFire & brimstone : sex, lies and drama
- trueFirst comes love : a novel
- trueFlesh & blood : reflections of infertility, family, and creating a bountiful life
- trueFor her own good : two centuries of the experts' advice to women
- trueForever boy : a mother's memoir of autism and finding joy
- Forever mom : what to expect when you're adopting
- trueForget "having it all" : how America messed up motherhood-and how to fix it
- trueForgive me
- From three feet off the ground : the year my children taught me how to see the world-- and myself/
- trueFrontier follies : adventures in marriage & motherhood in the middle of nowhere
- trueGetting the pretty back : friendship, family, and finding the perfect lipstick
- trueGirl
- Glitter and glue
- trueGlitter and glue : a memoir
- trueGo to sleep (I miss you) : cartoons from the fog of new parenthood
- trueGod and Jetfire : confessions of a birth mother
- trueGone
- trueGone in a flash
- trueGood company : a novel
- Good enough is the new perfect : finding happiness and success in modern motherhood
- trueGossip : a novel
- trueGrace : a novel
- trueGrace notes
- trueGreat job, Mom!
- trueGreat with child
- trueGuarding the moon : a mother's first year
- trueGuidebook to relative strangers : journeys into race, motherhood, and history
- Hablando de mamá a mamá : una guía para ser ¡la mejor mamá!
- trueHao : stories
- Happy mami (una mamá feliz) : un libro para las que acaban de ser mamás o están a punto de serlo
- trueHaving it and eating it
- trueHe gets that from me
- Hell-- p! : I'm a stepmother
- trueHer : a novel
- trueHer daughter's mother
- trueHer last death : a memoir
- trueHold on, but don't hold still : hope and humor from my seriously flawed life
- trueHolding Silvan : a brief life
- trueHolly Banks full of angst
- trueHoming instincts : early motherhood on a Midwestern farm
- trueHonor bound : an American story of dreams and service
- Hot mess to mindful mom : 40 ways to find balance, joy, and happiness in your every day
- trueHot pursuit : a novel
- trueHousewitch
- trueHurricane season
- trueHybrida : poems
- trueHypnotwist ; : Scarlet by starlight
- trueI heart my little a-holes : a bunch of holy-crap moments no one ever told you about parenting
- trueI love Mom
- trueI love you but I've chosen darkness
- trueI want my epidural back : adventures in mediocre parenting
- trueI'll show myself out : essays on midlife & motherhood
- trueI'm fine and neither are you
- trueI'm just happy to be here : a memoir of renegade mothering
- trueIdiophone
- trueIdiots : marriage, motherhood, milk & mistakes
- trueIf you lived here, you'd be home now
- trueImmediate family
- trueIn pieces : a memoir
- trueIn the country of women : a memoir
- trueJewelry box : a collection of histories
- trueJill : a biography of the First Lady
- trueJulia's child : a novel
- trueJust like mother
- trueKarolina's twins
- trueKathleen Hale is a crazy stalker : six essays
- trueKeeping Lucy
- trueKetchup is a vegetable : and other lies moms tell themselves
- trueKid gloves : nine months of careful chaos
- Kid me not : an anthology by child-free women of the '60s now in their 60s
- trueKnocking Myself Up: A Memoir of My (In)Fertility
- trueKris Jenner : --and all things Kardashian
- trueLady in waiting : my extraordinary life in the shadow of the crown
- trueLandslide : true stories
- trueLast chance Texaco : chronicles of an American troubadour
- trueLeaving Lucy Pear
- trueLet me lie
- trueLetter to a young female physician : notes from a medical life
- Life after birth : what even your friends won't tell you about motherhood
- trueLife at the edge and beyond : living with ADHD and Asperger syndrome
- trueLife in the treetops : adventures of a woman in field biology
- trueLife is not a reality show : keeping it real with the housewife who does it "all"
- trueLifesaving lessons : notes from an accidental mother
- trueLift
- Like a mother : a feminist journey through the science and culture of pregnancy
- trueLinea nigra : an essay on pregnancy and earthquakes
- trueListen to your mother : what she said then, what we're saying now
- trueLittle darlings : a novel
- trueLittle labors
- trueLittle nothings
- trueLittle wonders : a novel
- trueLive in love : growing together through life's changes
- trueLive your life : my story of loving and losing Nick Cordero
- Lo que hacen las madres : [especialmente cuando parece que no hacen nada]
- trueLook how happy I'm making you : stories
- trueLots of candles, plenty of cake
- Love and trouble : a midlife reckoning
- trueLove and trouble : a midlife reckoning
- trueLove is an ex-country : a memoir
- trueLove me as I am
- trueLucky boy
- Ma ma tian sheng liao bu qi : cong xin shou dao jia ting CEO
- Madres fuertes, hijos fuertes : lecciones que toda madre necesita para criar hijos extraordinarios
- Maiṃ se mām̐ taka
- trueMake 'em laugh : short-term memories of longtime friends
- trueMake it nice
- trueMake it scream, make it burn : essays
- trueMaking babies : stumbling into motherhood
- trueMaking motherhood work : how women manage careers and caregiving
- trueMaking time : Lillian Moller Gilbreth--a life beyond "Cheaper by the dozen"
- trueMama tried : dispatches from the seamy underbelly of modern parenting
- Mama, you are enough : how to create calm, joy, and confidence within the chaos of motherhood
- trueMamalita : an adoption memoir
- trueManaging expectations : a memoir in essays
- Managing the motherload : a guide to creating more ease, space, and grace in motherhood
- trueMary : a flesh-and-blood biography of the Virgin Mother
- trueMaternity leave
- trueMax and the superheroes
- trueMaxed out : American moms on the brink
- trueMay contain nuts : a novel of extreme parenting
- Mean moms rule : why doing the hard stuff now creates good kids later
- trueMean mothers : overcoming the legacy of hurt
- Meditation for motherhood : gentle Zen meditation for conception, pregnancy, and birth
- trueMessage from an unknown Chinese mother : stories of loss and love
- trueMiddlemarch and the Imperfect Life: Bookmarked
- Mindful motherhood : practical tools for staying sane during pregnancy and your child's first year
- trueMiracle for Jen : a tragic accident, a mother's desperate prayer, and heaven's extraordinary answer
- trueMom and me, me and mom
- trueMom genes : inside the new science of our ancient maternal instinct
- Mom genes : inside the new science of our ancient maternal instinct
- trueMom milestones : the true story of the first seven years
- Mom's book of lists : 100 practical lists for raising your kids
- Momfulness : mothering with mindfulness, compassion, and grace
- Mommy burnout : how to reclaim your life and raise healthier children in the process
- trueMomzillas
- trueMonsters : a love story
- trueMother & child : a novel
- trueMother : a cradle to hold me
- trueMother country
- trueMother is a verb : an unconventional history
- Mother me : an adopted woman's journey to motherhood
- trueMother noise
- trueMother of God : a history of the Virgin Mary
- trueMother of invention : a novel
- trueMother on fire
- Mother reader : essential writings on motherhood
- trueMother shock : loving every (other) minute of it
- trueMother winter : a memoir
- trueMothercoin : the stories of immigrant nannies
- trueMotherhood
- trueMotherhood, the mother of all sexism : a plea for parental equality
- trueMotherland
- trueMothers : an essay on love and cruelty
- trueMothers and daughters : a novel
- trueMothers, fathers, and others : essays
- Murder, motherhood, and miraculous grace
- trueMy Hollywood : a novel
- trueMy begging chart
- trueMy days : happy and otherwise
- trueMy foot is too big for the glass slipper : a guide to the less than perfect life
- trueMy heart is boundless : writings of Abigail May Alcott, Louisa's mother
- trueMy heart is boundless : writings of Abigail May Alcott, Louisa's mother
- trueMy life as a villainess : essays
- trueMy life in full : work, family, and our future
- trueMy miserable, lonely, lesbian pregnancy
- trueMy name is Lucy Barton : a novel
- trueNappily married : [a novel]
- trueNightbitch
- trueNobody ever asked me about the girls : women, music, and fame
- trueNorma Jeane Baker of Troy : a version of Euripides's Helen
- trueNorthern spy
- trueNot my daughter
- trueNothing to devour
- trueNow my heart is full : a memoir
- trueNow you see the sky
- trueOf men and their mothers
- trueOf mess and moxie : wrangling delight out of this wild and glorious life
- On becoming a mother : welcoming your new baby & your new life with wisdom from around the world
- trueOn immunity : an inoculation
- trueOne beautiful dream : the rollicking tale of family chaos, personal passions, and saying yes to them both
- trueOne day you'll thank me : essays on dating, motherhood, and everything in between
- trueOne good mama bone : a novel
- trueOperating instructions : a journal of my son's first year
- trueOpting out? : why women really quit careers and head home
- trueOur lady of perpetual hunger : a memoir
- Overcoming the mom-life crisis : ditch the guilt, put yourself on the to-do list, and create a life
- truePages for her
- trueParents under the influence : words of wisdom from a former bad mother
- truePerfectly imperfect : a life in progress
- truePersephone's garden
- truePhenomenal : a hesitant adventurer's search for wonder in the natural world
- truePlaying house : notes of a reluctant mother
- truePlease look after mom : a novel
- truePoser : my life in twenty-three yoga poses
- truePure flame : a legacy
- trueQueen Victoria : Twenty-Four Days That Changed Her Life
- trueQueen for a day : a novel in stories
- trueRaising demons
- trueReading women : how the great books of feminism changed my life
- trueReady for romance
- trueRebecca & Lucie in the case of the missing neighbor
- Remembering mother, finding myself : a journey of love and self-acceptance
- trueRipple effects : discover the miraculous motivating power of a woman's influence
- trueRisking it all
- trueRockabye : from wild to child
- Salud natural después del parto : la guía completa para una buena salud postparto
- trueSanctuary : a memoir
- trueSarah
- trueSaving Henry : a mother's journey
- trueSealed
- trueSearching for Sappho : the lost songs and world of the first woman poet : including new translations of all of Sappho's surviving poetry
- trueSecond house from the corner : a novel
- Second labor : mothers share post-birth stories
- trueSecrets of a Jewish mother : real advice, real stories, real love
- trueSecurity mom : an unclassified guide to protecting our homeland and your home
- Ser Mamá : cómo encontrar el balance ... ¡sin perder la cabeza!
- Ser madre a los 40 (y más allá) : lo que has de saber
- trueSh*tty mom : the parenting guide for the rest of us
- trueShe was like that : new and selected stories
- trueShirley Jackson : a rather haunted life
- trueShy: The Alarmingly Outspoken Memoirs of Mary Rodgers
- trueSight : a novel
- trueSign here if you exist and other essays
- trueSlash and burn
- trueSliding into home : a memoir
- trueSmall animals : parenthood in the age of fear
- trueSmall pleasures : a novel
- trueSo Many Babies: My Life Balancing a Busy Medical Career & Motherhood
- trueSofter side of hip-hop : poetic reflections on love, family, and relationships
- trueSome assembly required : a journal of my son's first son
- trueSomeone other than a mother : flipping the scripts on a woman's purpose and making meaning beyond motherhood
- trueSt. Ivo
- trueStanding still
- trueStay with me
- Steady days : a journey toward intentional, professional motherhood
- trueStepmother : a memoir
- trueStill : a memoir of love, loss, and motherhood
- trueStories I might regret telling you : a memoir
- trueStories from Candyland
- trueStrange folk you'll never meet
- trueStrong is the new sexy : a kick ass memoir
- Strong mothers, strong sons : lessons mothers need to raise extraordinary men
- trueStrung out : one last hit and other lies that nearly killed me : a memoir
- trueSunstroke and other stories
- trueSuperhero Mom
- trueSurvival of the thickest : essays
- trueSwimming in the deep end
- trueTerms of endearment
- trueTerritory of light
- trueThat kind of mother
- trueThe Child
- trueThe Copenhagen trilogy : Childhood; Youth; Dependency
- trueThe Crossley baby
- trueThe French gardener
- trueThe Golden State
- trueThe Hollow Queen
- trueThe Others
- trueThe Plant Hunter: A Scientist's Quest for Nature's Next Medicines
- trueThe Supper Club
- trueThe abundance : a novel
- trueThe accidental mother
- trueThe art of waiting-- : on fertility, medicine, and motherhood
- trueThe aviator's wife : a novel
- trueThe baby on the fire escape : creativity, motherhood, and the mind-baby problem
- trueThe bad mother's handbook
- trueThe baddest bitch in the room : a memoir
- trueThe bark before Christmas
- trueThe barter
- The birth of an adoptive, foster or stepmother : beyond biological mothering attachments
- trueThe birth of love : a novel
- trueThe bitch is back : older, wiser, and (getting) happier
- trueThe blue jay's dance : a birth year
- trueThe book eaters
- trueThe book of Gothel
- trueThe boy : a novel
- trueThe brightest sun
- trueThe candlelit menagerie : a novel
- trueThe childhood of Jesus
- trueThe choices we make
- trueThe color of family : a novel
- trueThe comfort of lies : a novel
- The complete idiot's guide to motherhood
- trueThe conflict : how modern motherhood undermines the status of women
- trueThe cradle : a novel
- trueThe dark side : a novel
- trueThe daughters : a novel
- trueThe desert rose
- trueThe doctor and the diva : a novel
- trueThe elegant out : a novel
- trueThe expatriates : a novel
- trueThe foremost good fortune
- trueThe garden of broken things
- trueThe gentle order of girls and boys : four stories
- trueThe gift of an ordinary day : a mother's memoir
- trueThe girls from Corona del Mar
- trueThe golden notebook
- trueThe golden notebook
- trueThe good mother myth : redefining motherhood to fit reality
- trueThe good sister : a novel
- trueThe hand that first held mine
- The happiest mommy you know : why putting your kids first is the last thing you should do
- trueThe hidden : a novel
- The honest body project : real stories and untouched portraits of women and motherhood
- trueThe house of deep water
- trueThe invisible mountain
- The kids will be fine : guilt-free motherhood for thoroughly modern women
- trueThe last Neanderthal : a novel
- trueThe late child : a novel
- trueThe latecomers
- trueThe letters of Sylvia Plath, Volume II, 1956-1963
- trueThe life of the mind : a novel
- trueThe long answer
- trueThe mama sutra : a story of love, loss, and the path of motherhood
- trueThe man who came down the attic stairs
- trueThe mere wife
- trueThe mermaid of Brooklyn
- trueThe middle place
- trueThe midwife of Hope River
- trueThe mighty queens of Freeville : a mother, a daughter, and the people who raised them
- trueThe missing word
- The mommy brain : how motherhood makes us smarter
- trueThe mommy group : freaking out, finding friends and surviving the happiest time of our lives
- trueThe mothers : a novel
- trueThe natural mother of the child : a memoir of nonbinary parenthood
- The natural mother of the child : a memoir of nonbinary parenthood
- trueThe nearness of you : a novel
- The new mom's companion : care for yourself while you care for your newborn
- trueThe nine lives of Rose Napolitano
- trueThe object of your affections
- trueThe offering : a novel
- trueThe only ones
- trueThe opposite of certainty : fear, faith, and life in between
- trueThe orphan mother
- trueThe other life
- trueThe other mother : a novel
- trueThe panic years : dates, doubts, and the mother of all decisions
- trueThe peculiar fate of Holly Banks : a novel
- trueThe perfect mother : a novel
- trueThe performance
- trueThe pretty one : a novel about sisters
- trueThe prize winner of Defiance, Ohio : how my mother raised 10 kids on 25 words or less
- trueThe pure gold baby
- trueThe rebellion of Miss Lucy Ann Lobdell
- trueThe reluctant midwife
- trueThe restoration of Celia Fairchild : a novel
- trueThe resurrection of Joan Ashby : a novel
- trueThe school for good mothers : a novel
- trueThe seed keeper : a novel
- trueThe sh!t no one tells you : a guide to surviving your baby's first year
- trueThe sh!t no one tells you about baby #2 : a guide to surviving your growing family
- trueThe sh!t no one tells you about toddlers : a guide to surviving the toddler years
- trueThe son of the house
- trueThe spring cleaning murders
- trueThe story of our lives
- trueThe stud book : a novel
- trueThe stuff that never happened : a novel
- trueThe supermom myth : conquering the dirty villains of motherhood
- trueThe sweetest fruits
- trueThe three mothers : how the mothers of Martin Luther King, Jr., Malcolm X, and James Baldwin shaped a nation
- trueThe truth about Ben and June : a novel
- trueThe unmumsy mum : the hilarious highs and emotional lows of motherhood
- trueThe upstairs house : a novel
- trueThe valedictorian of being dead : the true story of dying ten times to live
- trueThe weight of things
- trueThe white city
- trueThe wives of Bath
- trueThe wolf border : a novel
- trueThe wreckage of my presence : essays
- trueThe wrong way to save your life : essays
- trueThe year my mother came back
- trueThe year we turned forty : a novel
- The zen mama : guide to finding your rhythm in pregnancy, birth, and beyond
- trueThese things hidden
- trueThings I don't want to know : on writing
- trueThings I should have told my daughter : lies, lessons & love affairs
- trueThis Is Not a Book about Benedict Cumberbatch: The Joy of Loving Something--Anything--Like Your Life Depends on It
- trueThis boy we made : a memoir of motherhood, genetics, and facing the unknown
- trueThis might be too personal : and other intimate stories
- trueThis won't hurt a bit : my education in medicine and motherhood
- trueThree wishes : a true story of good friends, crushing heartbreak, and astonishing luck on our way to love and motherhood
- trueThrough the storm : a real story of fame and family in a tabloid world
- trueTo have and to hold : motherhood, marriage, the modern dilemma
- trueTo love and let go : a memoir of love, loss, and gratitude
- trueTough mothers : amazing stories of history's mightiest matriarchs
- trueTrain like a mother : how to get across any finish line-- and not lose your family, job, or sanity
- trueTriangles
- trueTrust me
- trueTrust women : a progressive Christian argument for reproductive justice
- trueTurbulence : a true story of survival
- trueUltraviolet
- trueUnder our roof : a son's battle for recovery, a mother's battle for her son
- trueUnderwire
- trueUnfollow me : a novel
- trueVacationland : a novel
- trueVertigo & Ghost: Poems
- trueWalk the vanished earth
- trueWayward
- trueWe are bridges : a memoir
- trueWe got this : solo mom stories of grit, heart, and humor
- trueWe live for the we : the political power of Black motherhood
- trueWe never asked for wings : a novel
- trueWe were mothers
- trueWe were witches
- trueWeird women : classic supernatural fiction by groundbreaking female writers, Volume 2, 1840-1925
- trueWhat I thought I knew
- trueWhat a happy family
- trueWhat do you do all day?
- What no one tells you : a guide to your emotions from pregnancy to motherhood
- trueWhat we lose : a novel